Home Tutor

Two months ago, i received a message from my ex teacher. She asked me to teach her child. So i was like, 'are you kidding, cikgu?!' Haha. Of course I didn't say that to her.. 😂 Anyway, i replied, "boleh cikgu.. InsyaAllah" Then, i asked her about her child, the child is a girl as i expected because i had seen her before in my school.. (Alert: teachers' children are an attraction to students haha)

My teacher asked me to teach her daughter Maths and Science form 1 until form 3. So i did the thinking.. okay Maths is fine, i take Course Math anyway.. but Science? Haha. It made me nervous for a while. I don't like Science as much as I like Math.. but it's fine. I could give it a try. :D

Oh yes, she asked me to teach when i'm in my sem break which means now hehe. (The holiday is getting over.. 😭) So today actually is the end of tutoring. (Teaching sounds too formal) hehe. As today is the last day, my student wanted us to eat together somewhere but still close to her house. I quickly agreed because it was her treat haha (I'm kidding Auna!) So we ate and talked about this and that. I have never realized we could be this close, really. Everything i hope is that all my knowledges i shared to you are worth and beneficial. Sorry if I had been a boring person, too strict or anything that makes you hurt. May Allah ease you in your PT3 next year, InsyaAllah.

New Year Resolutions

I know, i know, there's few days left until 2016 but who cares, i want to write the post no matter what.

New Year Resolutions
1. Be good and do good. I promise myself to be good to people even if they might hurt me in any way. I know it's hard to be good to people who have done wrong to me but I'll try. I just want to live my life without anger and hatred because yeah, life is short.. i don't even have enough time to love people who love me! I also want to be good to my parents. I know.. i have never been a good child to them :( Eversince i left them to continue my study in Perlis, I realize that they are all I need. I contacted them constantly every week, most of the time I talked to Cik to tell her how i was that day. Don't get me wrong, I talked to my father too but i feel much better if i can talk to Cik. (Anak mak OMG) But seriously, I want to be good to you both! Second, I want to do good. Do good to whoever i know or don't know. I want to do good because it will make my life become more happier. The feeling when you do good to people.. it's amazing. There's this saying - Do good and good will come to you =)

2. Study hard and smart.
I can't take it when i see this sentence - Study smart but not study hard. How can you succeed if you don't study hard? I have never seen a person who achieved outstanding result without studying real hard-unless you are a genius then i have no doubt about it. So for me, to achieve a good result, I have to study hard yet study smart at the same time. Yes. I need both. I have to study hard and smart.. to make sure i get 4 flat in every sem!

3. Be a good english spoken!
This has been in my list for three years. Haha. Someone take it out please? Oh man.. how i envy those people who can speak english fluently! To master my english, i keep listening to english songs(it's been my hobby so it's not hard for me to do it), i try to watch english movies without subtitles but i can't :(( so movies with english subtitles are much better for me(at least i still can learn right?). So next year i will try again.. watching movies without subtitles. Hopefully i can do this! I have always wanted to speak english in my everyday life but i have to realize, people around me are speaking malay so i have to do it too. Hehe nevermind.. who knows i might be a good english spoken next year :D

Hmm i think, three are enough. :p
May 2016 be the best year for me. InsyaAllah.

Im happy for you

I'm home baby! The break of sem 1 has just started. I plan to spend my holiday with staying at home.. Brilliant, right?😂😂😂 Anyway, two of my relatives have just married and they are siblings and both are girls. I can say that I'm quite close to one of them which I call 'Kak Baby'. They live in Perlis, yes, the place where i continue my study right now. She has been so nice to me, treat me well like I'm her sibling. She is great in baking cakes and sewing. Things that I'm bad at.. 😐 all in all, she makes me feel like she is my own sister.

I'm so happy for her that she finally married. I hope that her life will be great and I can't wait to see your children. I'm sure they will be pretty like you, Kak Baby!

Xoxo

Just around the corner

Believe it or not, i have been here, in Perlis around 5 months. It's by far the longest time in my life for being alone, away from family. Pheww. Life's got to be real. And lucky i still alive. I'm still trying to adapt. It takes time for someone like me who has never been away from family for a long time! Anyway, i'm going to sit for final exam for this sem on early of November. I really hope i can do the best, i don't expect much but i always pray i pass all the subjects...

By the way, you know what it means right? It marks the end of the semester!

I can't wait to back home!!!
See you next year, sem 2!
Xoxo

Today, I realize something. It's okay to cry if it hurts you. Cry as much as you want if you think it's too bad. Crying doesn't mean you are too weak to handle things because after all, we are human that have feelings. Now, have you done crying? No? Then, cry some more. But if you have done crying, promise yourself you will not cry for the same thing again. Let's change. Let's move forward. Life is full of surprise for you ahead. Remind yourself that life's too short to be unhappy. No worries. Have a nice day to everyone who reads this! =)

The IQ Test

So yesterday night i played computer games just to kill my boredom. Yes. That's what i'm going to do when i am superrrr bored. At first i played Wedding Dash which is my first choice whenever i decided to play computer games. But then i got bored because it was really hard for me to finish the level. I'm not lying here. It was really hard, i wanted to yawn. So i decided to play another game. I felt like playing IQ test game though i knew i would fail but nevermind let me give it a try. In that game, you have to bring all six of them, 3 missionaries and 3 cannibals or evils i called them, to the other side. You have to be careful to not let the cannibals eat missionaries or you will lose. So let me try..

After a few moments..
Wait, did i just make it??! I manage to solve it??!
I managed to bring six of them to the other side!
It was such an amazing moment in my life! 😆 i didn't know how i did it but i passed the test!

I have been playing it for a long time and i never managed to solve the test. Not even once. Even my sister doesn't know how to do it. Since i managed to solve it, i quickly called her and told her i passed the test. I felt like a winner! 😄

Now i know the test is not that hard. You just gotta know the technique and you will make it. 😉

Nothing like them

Done with the interview. I gave all the best i could and leave the rest to Allah. I know if i am accepted, that means i am fated to be there but if i'm not, that means Allah has better plans for me. So, there's nothing i should be worried about right? :)

People around me really support me and they think i can do it. They believe i will be accepted.. so much confident they are. Their wishes really touched my heart. So pure and sincere. They really want to see me succeed in the future, knowing that my dream is always that one; haven't changed and never will.

Family. Irreplaceable. How can you not love them?

5 years and counting

We knew each other since we were in primary school but we were not close. On the first year of high school, we happened to sit next to each other in the class. I call her S. As the times passed, we became close and we decided to sit next to each other every year. That means, we had become companion for 5 years. I enjoyed our time when we were together and surely she felt the same thing too, don't you S?

I felt different when she was not around me. I felt incomplete. Clichè but it's the truth. Everyone could sit next to me but i could still feel your absence. As far as i could remember, we barely fighted with each other. We never got into a quarrel because of a big misunderstanding. The only thing i could remember, we enjoyed each other company and we never bored of it every single day of school.

Many things had happened to you and me back then, but i will never get tired to stick by your side. You were always there to help and encourage me whenever i need it the most. I love to hear your stories and you never fail to make me laugh. Truly, i am one of lucky people to have met you and become your friend.

Although the school years had gone by, i will forever miss your company, your presence, your smile, your stories and everything that makes me remember of you.

P/s : i have interview for ipg tomorrow but am so lazy to read what i supposed to read so here i am, writing a short story instead. Brilliant, right? -_-

It's OK

I feel a lot better now. Past few days, i feel so insecure. I feel like i'm the worst among them all. Useless, hopeless and everything that ended with less. When i look at other people, they can do it so good but me? I don't think i can even pass. Dang. That's how easy i am to give up, to lose the spirit.

I used to be zero but i am making progress. I could say i'm at 5 now if i compare to what i used to be. I am more than happy! I used to hate it and still but it's lessen i guess.. i just hope i can do better and by the time comes, i can do it perfectly.

For now, i'm trying to learn to love what i hate. I know it's not easy but no harm trying, right?

Notetoself-time shall pass!

3 March

So, we finally got our result yesterday. SPM's result! Hehe. Honestly, i don't really feel nervous waiting for the result this time round. Really, i don't know why.

Alhamdulillah. My result was not great and amazing but nevertheless, i am still grateful. Although there is an B on that piece of paper, i just smiled. No regret. Maybe that's why I didn't even cry yesterday. I cannot remember if i cried when i got my PMR's result..

I realize that life is more than this. Life is more than what has written on that piece of paper. We just have to keep moving forward and not turning back. Life has more surprises for you in the future. We'll never know how our life would be for the next ten years. There's this saying, live life to the fullest. Trust me, you should!

Whatever it is,  Thank you teachers, family and friends! I love you lots! ♥

February's memo

I thought the pain has gone. Guess i'm wrong. The pain is still there. It comes and goes at certain times. Luckily the pain has lessen. Nonetheless, it's still hurt.

Really, sometimes i feel so tired. I'm trying my best, why just they can't see it? It got me thinking, "did i make a good choice?" But then i realize, it's my mistake, not the other party. I know how clumsy i am.. even me myself is sick of it. *sigh* i don't know how would i react if i have to handle person like me!

I guess, all i need is time. Even you said i can do it in particular time. It's just we don't know when the time is. Then, let me hold onto your words; yes I CAN. Until that time, let me try my best.

Trust me. Your patience and words of wisdom, are all i need.

Memang macam ni

Aku kalau tulis post dalam bahasa melayu je, automatik ayat jadi puitis, penulisan nampak beradab je. Dah macam boleh tulis sajak gayanya. Tapi.. kalau tulis post dalam bahasa inggeris, main belasah je nak tulis apa, puitis gramatis semua hilang.
Hmm.
Agaknya aku memang macam ni.

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Inspirasi

Kisahnya macam ni. Malam semalam aku baca blog Zahiril Adzim dan aku terjumpa satu post yang menceritakan tentang inspirasi. Katanya, orang mendapat inspirasi dan terinspirasi melalui pelbagai cara. Ada yang mendapat inspirasi dengan mendengar, melihat dan sebagainya. Jika difikirkan, memang betul.

Dan aku?
Terinspirasi daripada sebuah mimpi. Mimpi yang bagi aku sangat pelik dan indah pada masa yang sama. Cuma di sini aku tidak mahu menceritakan tentang mimpi aku kerana mimpi aku hanyalah kisah dongeng semata. Yalah, nama pun mimpi kan. Mimpi itu membuatkan semangat aku untuk menulis tiba-tiba berkobar kembali. Perasaannya seperti cepat-cepat mahu menulis sebuah kisah mimpi yang aku alami. Lalu aku cuba untuk menulis. Aku interpretasikan mimpi aku dengan kata-kata tanpa aku sedari, semua ini buang masa saja. Aku memang bukan penulis yang baik. Lalu aku lepaskan pen yang aku pegang dan aku harap mimpi itu muncul kembali walau aku tak mampu mengekspresikannya di atas sehelai kertas.

Lima belas

Rasa macam nak tukar template lagi tapi rasa macam template ni dah okey. Putih dan tak serabut. Rasa macam nak tukar tapi tiba-tiba rasa macam malas. Entahlah.

2015. Entah apa azam aku. 2014 pun macam tu jugak. Melewati hari-hari sehinggalah ke penghujung tahun tapi tetap tak mempunyai apa-apa azam. Bak kata Mat Luthfi, "azam aku adalah untuk mempunyai azam." Kan senang macam tu. Terus tercapai azam. Cuma yang pasti aku harap aku akan jadi lebih rajin belajar. Ya, aku memang pemalas. Sekian. Itu jelah azam aku.

2015. Tolong jadi tahun yang baik untuk aku.

2014, you're not gonna be missed.