Working.. what's that?

It's been a month of joy for me or should i say a month of happily being lazy at home? I don't have to iron the school uniform anymore, i can wake up late than i used to do and etc. Hehehe i should stop this. So you know, everyone seems to get themself a job because well, money doesn't grow on tree. Any job would do as long as the money comes to you but this girl, this girl who writes this post doesn't pretty much aware of it. Anyhow, she does aware of one thing and that makes her hurt so bad- she can't buy something she wants that easy nowadays. *cries a river*

But i don't want to work or do anything that is related to it.. pfft.

Late

I think i was born to be late in everything. *cries* Seriously, if i remember one by one event in my life, it would be obvious that i am late in anything i do. While everyone at my age was already riding bicycle here and there, i was just learning how to ride it. Can't you see it?!

It doesn't stop there. It haunts me again. This time is nothing different. My friends ride motorcycle to anywhere they could and I can only watch from far. i have promised to myself that i will learn to ride motorcycle and yes, i have to fulfil it. I just learn it from my brother past week. I tried to ride it for real! Never once i did it in my life. Of course i could not do it perfectly yet but let's give me a chance. Insyaallah i can ride better and get the licence! Yippie!

Anyway, i have figured out that the only reason why i could hardly do it is because of the fear. Fear of this, fear of that. When you are feared of something, you have low confidence of yourself and that will result in your performance. May the fear go away soon.

Something from the past

This is funny. I can't believe i just read my old blog. I was so funny back then. Shame on me! it looked like i really really love blogging. Trust me, i really did. I posted new entry like almost every day. Seemed that my life was boring and obviously i had nothing better to do.  *facepalm!*

I used to write a long post on the old blog. Well, long than on this new blog.. Whatevs. It's because i was still new in blogging and crazy to blog everyday. Now you can say goodbye to the old me because i can never do the same anymore. If you realize, every entry that i post is either short or very short. There is nothing more than that. Am i getting weird and old? Who cares anyway. As you can see it, i am getting more serious about my life and am not going to waste my time to post new entry everyday. (Do you even believe this?!)

Well, i think i used to be a girl with many words because i loved reading blogs and novels. I got inspiration to write from there simply because when i read, i can imagine it and any sentences or phrase that i find interesting will stick in my head. That's how i fell in love with blogging. Reading is still my favourite until now and never lasts but i find it's so hard to write such a long entry these years. Remember i told you how hard i was to write an essay? Blogging and writing essay are much pretty the same guys. Once you stuck, it's hard to be back on track.  I don't know what have gotten into myself. Let's just say my life was boring and dull back then and now it's not anymore.

Anyway i kind of missing the old me. I'm not missing the part of me who loved to mengarut. I'm missing the part of me who is easy to write something and never worries to lose track. I wonder if i could be that one again after all these years.